A Poem

HEAD ON DOWN

Where do you dwell?
down in the deep places we all fear inside of us.
The place where wants and fears guide us,
Head on down, down to that place inside.
Where you can find your demon sitting on a throne of muscle and bone.
Challenge it with your will and fire.
Fight remorse and terror.
Feel that needle prick your vein and the evil rush
soft endless velvet.
Feel greed and self loathing.
Know in moments that you can't survive temptation,
self destruction assured,
Knowledge of self blinded by untruth.
Feeling your soul slip further away, as you head down that path.
The dusty gravel in your voice is the end.

Endless mortar clogging your veins.
unravel,
seek the light of grace
yearn to be unburdened,
is suicide an answer? a willing choice of choices?
fall back into the dream once more.

Run to that place where pain and grief fear to go.
In that melancholy moment be free of cares.
Life is pain yet death is hard.
My mistress temptation embraces my heart.
Holding me in the grip, conscious of nothing, fearful of day
Let me head on down,
the path I have chosen is set in the stone of my tombstone.
My story is written in the words on these papers I leave here.
My testament to the world of my torture and strife.
Yet I overcame, I conquered my demon and lay him down.
Now the search is for more and reasons to want.
As I head on down the new road I’ve built.

By Ash Copyrighted 2006